11 Pet Peeves

1. When people go to civil war reenactments and root for the south.
2. When people misuse the words there, their, they're, two, to, too, your, you're, effect, affect, then and than.
3. When there is nobody on the road but you and the car behind you, and they still feel the need to ride your ass for miles.
4. When you comment on someone's facebook and you know they've seen it but they never answer.
5. When people say "excuse me" in such a tone that it wouldn't be any less rude for them to say "get the hell out of my way".
6. When people who drive giant beast gas guzzler trucks tell you that you really need to think about going green.
7. One uppers.
8. People who hate cops.
9. Gamer console snobs.
10. When people are obsessed with south park.
11. Stoners who  are obsessed with weed and only want to talk about weed.

New Camera New Job

Gosh I suck at blogging!

But, I finally decided on a camera. I decided to buy the Nikon D5000.

Yeah, I know. It's awesome. It has everything I want/need. And I'm also working on setting up a little makeshift photo studio in my basement so I can finally have a decent space to shoot photos indoors. I'm very excited...now all I need is about $800

First day of work today, it was okay, but I can't help but have a sense of impending doom...

Facebook Status/Rage

My day did not start out well. It all began with an innocent status update on facebook where I said that I was practicing counting money with my friend.

My friend's mom friend seems to think that every status that everyone posts is an opportunity for her to cause drama and be mean.

She commented and said "My kids are doing that in the 1st grade".

Am I the only one that thinks that's super bitchy? For all she knows I could have a learning disability and she's making fun of me like a total ass.

So I commented back and basically told her that I'm not required to put up with her BS and I'm not going to.

So she sends me a lovely message:

Maegan
1st let me start by saying DONT post something on a WORLD wide, PUBLIC site that you dont want others to comment on.
2nd your right you dont have to put up with my BULLSHIT as u say. But I will assure you I wont put up with YOURS. I didnt not attack you, I didnt not swear at YOU. I commented on a PUBLIC post. You might talk to your MOMMA that way but in the REAL world the world of germs NO ONE including ME will put up with it. Act like an ADULT not like a teeny booper, from the getto. If u have something to say and swear or attack someone do it through private email or FB email. I have no idea how you took it but I ment NOTHING by it . And YOUR also right YOUR NOTHING, NOTHING at all like -----. Think next time YOU post on a PUBLIC WORLD WIDE site if its something YOU are willing to have others commment on and able to take what might be said.

Okay.
1. my facebook is not a world wide public webstite, 99 people can see my status updates.
2. the fact that you can see my status doesn't give you the right to attack me, or say whatever you want. that's a sorry ass excuse to be mean.
3. exactly what bullshit are you talking about? am i not allowed to stick up for myself?
4. yeah insult my mother. also very mature. and for the record: I don't talk to my "momma" that way because my mother is not a psycho serial bitch!
5. act like an adult? that literally makes me laugh out loud, this bitch acts like she's in middle school and drama is her oxygen. but i need to grow up. ever heard the expression people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones?
6. why would i do anyone the courtesy of e-mailing them and not embarassing them when they can't do me the same courtesy?
7. why on earth should i have to put serious thought and consideration into a status about hanging out with my friend? it's not like I posted some controversial political comment or nude pictures of myself, wtf is there to think about? i was under the obviously silly assumption that people didn't post their random statuses with the expectation that people are going to abuse/attack or harass them!
8. i should be able to take what is said? that's a TWO WAY STREET. don't write checks your ass can't cash.
10. don't capitalize words you don't know how to spell.

Update on My Life

Forgive me for not posting for a few weeks, haven't really had anything of substance to say...school is getting boring, but it's almost over.

We painted our living room, I don't really know how to describe the color but it's gorgeous!

I also got a new job, at a pet store, which is exciting, I can't wait to work with the animals! I'm so excited. Now I can buy the things I want/need, a jumper box for my car, Christmas presents, and a new camera of course.

Cops and Sociolgy

Okay, every week I look forward to my Sociology class. But I usually end up with a headache from people's arguments giving me a headache. But seriously, this person in my class pisses me off every single week. This week he made it perfectly clear that he doesn't believe that anyone should be held accountable for anything they do or have to follow any rules. He kept talking about how all cops are ass holes and all the stupid reasons why he or someone he has known has gotten arrested. Guess what, they all got arrested for breaking the law, i.e. being intoxicated in public, carrying illegal drugs on them so on and so forth. Those rules are in place for your safety and for the safety of the people around you. I'm not denying that some cops are total dicks, but not all of them are, and when they arrest you for breaking the law they're not being ass holes, they're doing their job. If you don't want to get arrested then don't break the law, otherwise don't complain. That just shows what a juvenile view he has of the world, getting mad at the people enforcing the rules he was breaking.

New Laptop!!

I was thinking the other day about how I haven't had anything interesting to write about lately. Well...here's something. My parents just gave me a new laptop today, as an early Christmas present. I'm so excited!! It's so nice and I'm loving Windows 7. It was a really nice surprise.

Also I love it when people try to argue with me, and you use facts, I repeat FACTS, not opinions, to support your view point, and the other person insists that your facts are wrong or that they disagree. Like seriously? That's fine, the truth isn't contingent on you believing it. People give me headaches.

Friday

Yesterday was a really good day. I went to sociology first, and I gave my power point presentation on child abuse. It turned out really well, my teacher liked it and I got a 98% on it.

After that I took my animals for walks. I must say, you better not even think of taking Mr. Waggs for a walk and not Frito. You'll come home to a little 18 pound fat roll leaping eight feet into the air. Anyway, they really love their walks, I don't really see what's so entertaining about them but whatever floats their boats.

Then I went to go see "Couple's Retreat" with Nick. It was actually way better than I thought it would be, definitely worth while movie.

After the movie I went to a Whalers' hockey game with my family and Nate. About fifteen minutes into the game, Nate and I moved to the other side of the arena because these clueless guys behind us were banging their stupid thunder sticks together endlessly, right in my right ear. I really couldn't stand it anymore. So we moved and I got nachos and an ice cream and Nate got a beer and we shared the nachos. The Whalers won the game 7-1, so it was a pretty high scoring hockey game.

It was a very good Friday.   :]

Funny Day

Okay, I just have to ask...what is up with the over abundance of stupid government ideas that just scream disaster? People need to learn to use their critical thinking skills.

Anyway. I know I keep mentioning school, but I'm really enjoying it this semester. Yesterday I took my bio quiz on genetics...11/11, yeah I know, I'm awesome. And I got two of my lab reviews back, I got a 23/25 on one and a 25/25 on the other. I have to work really hard at it, but I'm really happy with my grade.

I've had a few good laughs today. First Amber told me her dream about me and my dad confronting our neighbors about parking in my spot all the time, apparently my dad screamed at them and I spray painted them in the face and we all ran away lmfao. Then I read the FML that Amber sent me, I was crying I was laughing so hard.

Today, I totaled my car. I flipped it over on the freeway and broke my collarbone in the process. I was in extreme pain and unable to move. It took the ambulance an hour to get there in rush hour traffic. The song repeating on my iPod was, "Don't Worry, be Happy." FML

Funniest thing I've ever read ever. I'm sure my mom thought I was insane when I could barely read the first part because I was laughing so hard...someone totaling their car and breaking their collar bone is funny? HAHA.

And then I read Jen's blog to see the picture lil' Joe drew of her working in sewers (she doesn't work in the sewer). That made my life, that kid cracks me up.

I already went to English and finished all my work in that class, then I went to Sonic with my mom for lunch, and now I have to go to my bio lab, then study for my sociology test I have tomorrow. I'm out.

Change of Plans and Walmart Trips

I think I've decided against the blue in my hair. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to have blue in my hair, but it's just too much of a hassle and too expensive to have to bleach my hair and then dye it blue and then only have it last for two weeks...not worth my time or money. I'm probably just going to do a couple blond streaks. I hope I can get them light enough.

Monday was Nate's 22nd birthday, (he's old) I hope it was a good one.

Last night I took Paige and Amber to Walmart so Paige could get her new phone that she had to have right away, even though she's not going to be able to use it for two weeks. Me and Amber decided to stop by the photo center and make prints. There is nothing better than the automatic picture printer. Amber printed 64, some were pictures she took of me and derrick and others were pictures of us at the cider mill, or dressed up as thing one and thing two for a Halloween party. I printed portraits I took of my cousin's family over the weekend, the quality is amazing, I was pleased. Then me and Amber dropped Paige off at my house and we went to her house. We looked at our pictures and put them in our photo boxes, which I'm really excited about. I still have to label the back of them with the dates and everything, I'm excited.

I have a Bio quiz today that for some reason I thought was on Monday...wrong. It's today and I hope I'm ready for it.

I have lots of English homework to do, I have a paper due by the end of class tomorrow, APA format which I've never even heard of but whatever...I'm out.

Happy Birthdays and School

First I'd like to wish a happy 22nd birthday to my boyfriend Nate <3. Hopefully today will be a good day.

I have a bio quiz today and I really hope I studied well enough for it (I might cry if I get less than a 10/10). It was kind of an awkward test to study for and I'm not really sure what's going to be on it.

In other news, I switched my intro to child welfare class to a class about children with disabilities. I think that is a better choice for me since I'm planning on working with kids who have down syndrome. I'll probably end up taking the child welfare class in the future just not this year.

Also, my mommy helped me figure it out, and if I do really well this semester and next I could have my GPA up to a 3.5 by the end of this year. Magic number?

New Hair

New hair cut. You can't see the layers, but they're there and they look really cute. I also dyed it dark brown, not it's finally one color. I'm kind of questioning why it wasn't all one color to begin with since I haven't dyed it in many years but whatever. Once I get time to go shopping, I'm going to pick up some temp blue hair dye and add some blue highlights. This is probably my last semester without a job and therefore my last chance to dye my hair funky colors. I'm excited.

School Schedule

After a lot of moving things around, I finally got my school schedule in order. Looks like I'm going to have another heavy course load. I'm taking Basic Human Nutrition, The Art of Being Human (blow off class), Arabic 1, Principals of Human Anatomy and Physiology, and Intro to Child Welfare.

It'll be a lot of worth it, but I think I'll do really well and the end results will be worth my effort. And hopefully by the end of this year I'll be able to get my GPA up to a 3.5.

Fall Portraits and Happy Halloween

Today was a really good day, me and Amber went and took Joe and Jen's and little Joe's fall family portraits at the park. They turned out really well and I'm very happy with them. Some of them are a little over exposed or need some color correction, but that's nothing I can't take care of. I love taking pictures, it's kind of my passion. Amber was kind enough to let me borrow her camera. The wouldn't have turned out as well if I had taken them with mine. Hopefully I can get a job soon and buy my own really nice camera. After we took almost three hundred pictures, we went out to dinner which was yummy, we had fetta bread as an appetizer and I had a chicken wrap and fries for my meal. They also had really good lemonade, I don't know what made me want lemonade but I really liked it. Now me and Amber are going to carve her pumpkin and I'll probably end up studying for school while watching "Halloween" with her. I'm out.

School and Paranormal Activity

Okay seriously, I know I haven't blogged in almost a week. But I've gotten so much school work done!! I got most of my sociology project done, and I caught up completely on my sociology reading. I'm also caught up on my bio reading for the most part, but I'll probably end up spending all my free time studying genetics since I barely understand what's going on...P generations and F1 generations...whattt?

I decided to do my sociology project on child abuse, we had to choose an article that related to sociology and then make an, at least, five minute report. The article was about a study done that showed a link between child abuse and criminal behavior. My PowerPoint is awesome.

I've been pretty obsessed with school lately, just studying and getting stuff done and making sure I know everything. As of right now I have an overall 4.0 and I'd like to keep it that way. If I can get at least a 3.8 this semester it'll bump my GPA up to 3.25 and if I get a 4.0 it'll be a 3.35 which isn't amazing but it's better than it is right now. I'm really motivated right now, usually I get less and less motivated toward the end of the semester but I'm so pumped.

I saw Paranormal Activity last night with Amber. It was an okay movie. The acting was horrible, especially the girlfriend character, and it kind of took too long to get going, like nothing super interesting happened for what seemed like forever. But the stuff that did happen was pretty scary, I had a hard time falling asleep after that haha. 

Awesome Grades and Catching Up

Today has been a pretty good day. I started my new English class today and it doesn't seem like it's going to cause a work load over flow, so that's good. I also have to get started on my online computer class, the first assignment is due Saturday and I haven't even looked at the class yet.

We got some graded Bio stuff back this week. I got my lab report back, I got a 93% which was a little disappointing, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it, especially considering my 122% on my chapter seven and eight test. Yes, I know, I'm awesome. He actually marked one of my answers wrong but I was sure it was right, so I asked him after class and he corrected it for me, which made me happy.

Now I am going to spend the evening catching up on my sociology reading.

Quick Update

Ugh, I'm a little behind in school, and on top of it I start two new classes this week. My sister most likely has mono and if I get it my semester is as good as done.

Gotta get off to bed now, just a quick update.

Prodigal

Today I just want to bring the endless mercy of God to the attention of anyone who reads this.

Tell me why do you run
you say you're so ashamed
bruised and broken
thought if i figured out
the mess you made
that i'd leave

but anywhere you are
is never too far away
there's freedom from your scars
the mistakes that you made
forgiven
the memories erased
baby, that's the beauty of grace
la de da, la de da da

tell me what is love?
i'll never hold you to

the things you may have done
you say you want new life
in my arms there's mercy

but anywhere you are
is never too far away
there's freedom from your scars
the mistakes that you made
forgiven
the memories erased
baby, that's the beauty of grace
la de da, la de da da

so blow a kiss goodbye
to all the pain you hide

but anywhere you are
is never too far away
there's freedom from
your scars...
the memories erased
baby, that's the beauty of grace

anywhere you are
is never too far away
there's freedom from your scars
the mistakes that you made
forgiven
the memories erased
baby, that's the beauty of grace

Catching Up

I have been so busy lately!! I can't say I don't like it though because I get bored when I'm not busy. Friday was spent mostly with Amber. We went to a cider mill and got apple cider and doughnuts. I didn't have any doughnuts but the cider was delicious. We took a million pictures, including pictures of the large swarms of ducks that were less than shy about asking for your food. Then we were hanging out for a while and my parents took us to Culver's for Amber's birthday. She opened her gift from me which was a photography reflector. It was an amusing experience because when she opened it, the disc unfolded and smacked her in the face, and then I'm pretty sure she had no idea what it was until I told her. It made everyone laugh.
Saturday I also spent a great deal of with Amber, and Sunday was completely spent studying for my bio test that we were given very little time to study for. I made that test my bitch. I'm positive I got a 100% on it plus the ten points extra credit from doing the study guides. I'm kicking ass in that class. I am going to be really disappointed if I don't at the very least get a 3.9 in that class. I think I deserve it.
But seriously my teacher acts like I'm a total moron. Whenever I ask a question he acts like I'm speaking Greek whenever I ask a question. I'm like seriously, what are you not understanding about this question?! It's weird. Like okay I'm already shy enough and you're not helping. Whatever.
Today I was supposed to see "Where the Wild Things Are" with my cousin, but we didn't get to go because she had to study so we're doing that tomorrow. So I figured that I could hang out with Nate instead since it's his day off today. But he got called into work because the person who was supposed to be working got hit by a car. And Amber had class so I pretty much had nothing to do today, and I took a nap instead.
Tomorrow is going to be a study day, and also my last completely open Tuesday of the semester because I start my new English class this week. I guess I'm kind of excited for it to start, I just hope it's not too fast because I'm already up to my ass with biology and sociology so adding on another fast class might be the straw that breaks the camel's back. It's only seven weeks though so whatever, I'll just push through it.
Right now I'm watching Monsters vs. Aliens with Amber and I must say it's pretty hilarious. These kind of movies just tickle me. Like Bolt, I was the only one in the theater laughing hysterically at that movie.

And I just had to put a picture of this on here because it's hilarious. :] 

Long Week

This week of school has worn me out.

I had a quiz yesterday in bio that I got a 100 on, and then I also had a midterm lab exam today, I really don't know how I did on that, I know I got some wrong though.

Now I have to read and take notes on two chapters of sociology for tomorrow morning. And then I get to spend the entire weekend studying for yet another bio test, so there's that. I also have to work on my paper I have to write for sociology, I don't know when it's due yet though.

Tomorrow Amber is taking Paige's homecoming pictures, and I get to be her assistant. That'll be fun, I love spending time with my bestie.

Now I'm going to go sleep until Amber calls me to go to her house.

Running and School

Once I catch up with my schoolwork, I really need to get back to running. I miss it, even on the days that I don't wanna do it, I'm still really glad that I did. It just gets a little time consuming to work out every day, I usually work out for an hour or an hour and a half, because I do yoga for like twenty minutes then I run for about a half hour then I do strength training for like twenty to thirty minutes, and then after showering and everything, that adds up to two hours, which is a lot of missed studying. I guess I just need to figure out how to balance the two. Biology is eating my life. I barely have even a weak grasp on the complex process of cellular respiration and ATP synthesis.
I'm kind of starting to get tired of school, I have no academic stamina. I usually do really well for the first 3/4 of the first semester and then I get worn out and slow down. If I could keep up the pace I start out at, I'd be a super student. Oh well.
Yesterday Nate and I went to Mongolian BBQ and I had the same thing I always have there; Krab, pea pods, pineapples, lemon sauce and various spices. So the griller insisted that I add more sauce and more spices to my plate (otherwise it would burn according to him), even though I've been making my food that way for years but whatever. My food ended up being so spicy and hot that I couldn't even taste it. I finished like half of it and then I was done. Needless to say I was kind of pissed but whatever, that's what I get for not being assertive I guess.

Weekend

Nothing really new or important to address. This weekend was pretty good. Friday was mine and my boyfriend's three and a half year anniversary, but we didn't get to go out to dinner because he had to work. He also had to work Saturday and Sunday so we're going out to dinner tonight.
On Saturday I went with my family to an apple orchard, which was fun. They had animals that we looked at for a while then we went into the shop and got some cider, doughnuts, and Gala apples. The doughnuts were still warm, and they were delicious. Of all the animals I'd have to say that the pigs were my favorite, I love farm animals but I think that the piglets and baby goats are the cutest. The pigs were all covered in mud and looked pretty happy about it.
The weather outside has been beautiful, I never thought I'd say this but I'm actually enjoying the cooler weather, it has been a nice break from the hot and humidity of Michigan.
Also on Saturday I babysat my cousin again. It was fun, we played with his disgusting science kit. We made green slimy snot and we grew bacteria in petri dishes. I don't know what happened to them but I assume that the bacteria are still growing.
Sunday night I was hanging out with Amber, and we caught up on the 24 hours of conversation that we missed. We watched degrassi, desperate housewives, and supernanny which is one of my new regular shows.
I have another really busy week with school so I hope it all goes well. I'm out.

Lame

Well today isn't going to be as fun or exciting as expected. Today is mine and my boyfriend's 3.5 year anniversary. He originally was supposed to have the day off but they scheduled him to work so he probably won't make it to my house until about midnight, which sucks.

I don't really have any plans for the weekend. Babysitting Saturday, but other than that my weekend will probably consist mainly of homework and studying. Fun stuff.

Nazi Style Propaganda in the USA

     There are things going on in the US right now that are starting to look a lot like Nazi Germany. Especially the "Barack Obama Songs" that little kids are being taught in schools. It's seriously creepy. I hate seeing kids exploited to push the political agendas of adults, they are so impressionable.

Listen to this song and keep in mind the words when you watch the next video.

Mmm Mmm Mmm

Barack Hussein Obama

He said that all must lend a hand

To make this country strong again

Mmm Mmm Mm

Barack Hussein Obama

He said we must be fair today

Equal work means equal pay

Mmm Mmm Mmm

Barack Hussein Obama

He said that we must take a stand

To make sure everyone gets a chance

Mmm Mmm Mmm

Barack Hussein Obama

He said red, yellow, black or white

All are equal in his sight

Mmm Mmm Mmm

Barack Hussein Obama

UHM. All are equal in his sight? Well that's great, I feel so blessed.

Now listen to this:

Adolf Hitler is our savior, our hero,

He is the noblest being in the whole wide world.

For Hitler we live.

For Hitler we die.

Our Hitler is our lord.

Who rules a brave new world.

Granted, I haven't heard the word "lord" used in any Barack Obama songs, but this isn't too far off from what we are hearing and what is being said in present day America. It is exactly the same, a whole nation of people placing all their hope in one individual to be their savior.

Think about it.

Still Blaming Bush?

Okay seriously, I joke around a lot about how everything is Bush's fault; bad weather, power out, global warming, you name it. But people are still seriously finding ways to blame Bush for things completely irrelevant to him or his presidency. Give it up, it's getting old and you just sound petty.

I read an article about how it is Bush's fault that Chicago doesn't get to host the 2016 Olympics (which sounded like more of a pain in the ass than it's worth), on these grounds: "It seems that we have to look at what happened in the past years and what America — the image of America over the past eight years in the world. And so Obama has not had time to turn that around on the world stage." -


Okay yada yada it's all Bush's fault and not Obama's we've heard that story a million times already. Barack Obama travels the globe bad mouthing this country and apologizing for us, and Bush has put us in a bad light? You might want to rethink that. 

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On a lighter note, today was an excellent day, I got my score back for my bio test and I got a 121% on it which is better than I was expecting, I actually got the highest score in the class, so it was pretty awesome. I also babysat my cousin today which was nice because he likes to play outside and I like to be outside, especially when the weather is nice like it was today. I have a test on Friday, and a paper due on Monday. Tomorrow I have a Biology lab that I'm not really looking forward to but I guess I'll get over it.

Photos, Bio, Birthday

     Amber and I went and did a photo shoot at my house and at the park, they all turned out really nice, my favorite is to the left. She's a good photographer.
     I'm hoping that tomorrow I'll get my Bio test back so I can see what I got. I'm hoping for a hundred, but there were a couple I wasn't really sure of, so I don't know.
     I ordered Amber's birthday present online today and it's supposed to get here next week, so I'm excited about that.
    

Jim Carrey

Okay seriously, what is up with Jim Carrey? He looks like Jack Nicholson! He gained 40lbs for his roll in "The Three Stooges". Not working for you Jim.

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Randomness

Today was a pretty good day. I finally got my Bio test done and I did really well, I might have even gotten a 100%. So I was excited about that. I have all day tomorrow off, so me and Amber are going to go on a long overdue photo adventure. She wants to take pictures of me so we're going to go take outside portraits, hopefully they turn out well and the weather is good.

Desperate Housewives Never Disappoints

Another Spoiler Alert - Regarding Episode Two, Season Six Desperate Housewives

    A few weeks ago I was telling my sister about how I have never been disappointed with a Desperate Housewives episode. These last couple seasons have been especially good. So anyone who reads my blog regularly knows that last week this good record was in question when I realized that Lynette was going to consider having an abortion.



     This week Julie, Susan's daughter is in the hospital, unconscious, after being attacked by an unknown character. Lynette reveals to Susan that she is pregnant and isn't sure if she actually wants to have her children. Susan, in so many words, tells her not to have an abortion. It made me so happy! I can continue watching my favorite show. 

     

I'll Go See Michael Moore's New Film When My Ticket is Free

     Could Michael Moore be more of a hypocrite/idiot? Capitalism doesn't work. Is that why you're a millionaire sir? The first couple times I saw the preview for his new movie, I thought it was a joke, I seriously thought it was meant to make fun of him. I didn't think anyone was stupid enough to stand outside of buildings with bags screaming for their money back. What a joke. Anyway, the priest in this video, pretty much says it all, enjoy.

Life

     I really need to get back to running, since I quit cross country after freshman year I have never really been able to get back into a regular running schedule. I usually start running and keep at it for a week or two and then stop  for one reason or another.
     I took new pictures for facebook today, because I was bored of all the ones I had and I haven't taken new ones in forever. I couldn't do my hair the way I wanted to, because I suck at it, but the pictures ended up looking pretty good overall. I kind of wish I had a really nice camera and a photo studio so I could take pictures and be an artist all day long. That would be great.
      I feel like I wasted most of today, like I do with most Saturdays, sit around and stare at the computer all day instead of doing homework and important things that need to be done. My Biology test was canceled on Wednesday and rescheduled for Monday so I have to restudy everything that I studied, for three days before the test, ugh.
     I also have a lab report due, lab reviews, bio quizzes, a sociology test next Friday, after which we will promptly be assigned a project to do. And I start two more classes on the twenty-first. See why I have no time to get a job this semester? I'm going to be broke forever.
     I'm currently working on listening to the new Breaking Benjamin CD "Dear Agony". I've only listened to like twenty seconds of one song but I'm working on it, lol. It sounds pretty good, I love Breaking Benjamin.
     
    
 

Long Week and Moral Relativism

It is Friday, and the week is over, it was a long one. I'm really looking forward to relaxing this weekend. I studied most of Sunday, Monday and Tuesday for my Biology test that was supposed to be on Wednesday, but my teacher got sick so it was canceled and moved to Monday. I know I'm ready though because I studied really hard and I feel like I pretty much memorized all three chapters.

I also babysat my little cousin Joe on Wednesday and Thursday this week, and I had a lot of fun doing it. We played outside a lot which I really liked, I love being outside, and the weather was beautiful. We built a squirrel trap in his backyard which was a little difficult but still fun to do, and we also went to a river down the street from his house. We watched cray fish in the water, skipped stones, and watched sticks flow down the river.

Today I had my Sociology class and we ended up on the topic of drug dealing. One person in my class believes that it is okay to sell drugs. His thought process behind this? "Some people gotta pay their bills." That is completely ridiculous to me. Don't people realize what drugs to do people? Is it okay for someone to sell drugs to pay their bills at the expense of someone else's life and family? Drugs kill people, selling drugs for a living is completely immoral. I found that comment very disturbing and personally offensive. I watch the show "Intervention" and in that show you see what a negative impact drugs have on people. Drugs destroy people's bodies, their lives, and the lives of family members. It breaks my heart to find that people think it is okay to do something so immoral, but I guess that's what happens when people become moral relativists.

Fall and Pictures

Today was an a perfectly beautiful Michigan fall day. I must admit that I have always hated fall because it is the end of summer and it leads into winter (which I really hate), but I decided to make an effort to enjoy all the seasons from now on. Even if they are painfully long, cold and gray. Today was colder than it has been in a while, but it wasn't so cold that you couldn't go outside without a jacket. The beginning of the day was really gray and dark, but towards the end the sun came out and the clouds dispersed a little. It was beautiful, the trees turning from green to red, the beautiful colors of the sunset on the clouds, and it was a nice temperature. I had some apple cider too. Apple cider tastes so much better in the fall, when it's cool outside, I don't know why but it just does.

My friend Amber posted a couple of pictures on her deviant art I wanted to share because I just can't get over how amazing they are. I love the composure of this picture (top right). I am a sucker for black and white photos but I have to say this looks amazing in color, especially since blue really is the only color, it adds drama. I also admire the creativity of this shot, this isn't something I would think of myself. This is the kind of picture I would put on my bedroom wall. I'm actually
going to ask her to help me pick some out, or if she cares if I put them on my wall, because there are so many that I adore. Then there is this second picture (bottom right) that I also really like. The other one is my favorite but I also really like this one. Keep up the good work Ambs, it is truly inspiring.

Sociology

I didn't think I would, but I'm really enjoying my sociology class. It's really interesting to study other people. I've always love watching people, but I never really thought about it. I really do find other people fascinating. Unless they're pissing me off. For instance; I realized today that, it isn't that people don't know how to drive, it's just that they don't care. They don't care if they're taking your life into their hands, they're just completely inconsiderate. Anyway, off topic, I really like looking at what people do in other cultures and in subcultures. I'm writing a paper based on an interview with someone involved in a subculture. I decided to interview my boyfriend's younger brother who is a scout. He's actually just about to get his eagle rank, which is pretty sweet. I'm really excited about the paper, it's going to be so good. He gave me such good answers, I actually have something to work with, and he's also giving me a book he has about the scouts so I can have more information. I may even post it as a blog when I'm done.

Desperate Housewives Huge Disappointment

Spoiler Alert: If you have not been caught up to the newest season of Desperate Housewives then don't continue reading this post (unless you want to spoil it for yourself of course).


Last season (season 5) of Desperate Housewives, my favorite show ever, Lynette discovered that at the age of 47, she is pregnant with twins, and is not happy about it. She makes it clear that she is not happy about it in the first episode of season six when she confesses to Tom that she does not love her unborn babies.

This brought to me the realization that this season Lynette is probably going to consider having an abortion. Anyone who knows me even a little knows that my world imploded when I realized this. What a way to ruin a show. It started last season, they started bringing more politics into their episodes, which I found annoying. People watch shows like Desperate Housewives to escape reality, they don't want to hear about how bad the economy is when they're trying to relax. And to bring such a touchy issue into the series, in my opinion, is a big mistake. If Lynette makes a bad decision and decides to get an abortion, I don't know if I will be watching this show anymore. I don't want to watch shows that condone the murder of innocent children.

Unproductive But Fun Day

Today was a moderately unproductive good day.

I woke up at 11 o'clock, and it was really gloomy and overcast outside. I had this amazing plan to get a bunch of school work done....didn't happen. I took notes on like a quarter of chapter six for biology. And I have a huge test on Wednesday and a quiz on Monday. I'm stressing about it because it's been getting harder and harder.

Then I went outside and me and my dad built a fire, me and him and my mom sat around the fire for a couple hours until Amber called and my dad had the idea to go to Sonic. So I went up and picked up amber and we all went out to Sonic, including Paige. Me and Amber and Paige decided to sit at a table outside because it was too crowded in the back seat. We had such a good time, and we ended up laughing so hard that the people sitting in the surrounding area were making fun of us. If I had noticed that I probably would have laughed more, I seriously couldn't stop.

Now me and Amber are sitting in her living room watching Super Nanny.

Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive, probably less fun though.

Long Day

Today was a long day. I got a crappy night sleep, which is nothing new as of late, and I got up at 7 A.M. for my 9 A.M. class. (I really need to learn how to not spend 2 hours getting ready for class.) My sociology class is okay, it's really interesting but it's really long (3.5 hours) and there's this kid who sits in front of me who thinks he knows everything and is really obnoxious. But, on the plus side, I only have to do it 10 more times.

We have a reflection paper due next Friday, we have to interview someone that is part of a subculture. I'm debating between a couple of people. I want to either interview my boyfriend's little brother who is a scout, or his older brother who does graffiti art (not on buildings, on canvases and stuff, and it's beautiful), or I could interview my boyfriend who is in the culinary arts. I don't know what I want to do.

I'm stressing about my bio test on Wednesday, there's so much to know and I'm a little behind in my studying. I desperately want to get a good grade in this class.

25 Things About Me

I am once again behind in my blogging. I only have two classes but they have me so busy that I hardly have time to read or write.

My cousin Jen posted a blog called 25 things about me so I decided to be a lame-oh and do the same thing. :D

1. I love Lady Gaga's music, but I don't love Lady Gaga
2. I love birds
3. I secretly believe that my shyness with cause me to get nowhere in life
4. I am terrified of most bugs but I'm not in the least bit afraid of: large dogs, rodents, or roller coasters
5. I love to write but nothing ever comes out the way that I want it to
6. I am a deep thinker
7. I do not trust the doctor
8. My favorite color is lime green
9. I love milk
10. I have asthma
11. I am very conservative
12. I have bad knees
13. I am actually really good at drawing, but I don't have the patience for it
14. The cello is my favorite instrument
15. Bach's Cello Suite No. 1 is my favorite piece of music of all time
16. I have visited Switzerland, Germany, Lichtenstein, and Austria
17. I took four and a half years of German
18. I am naturally good at most things I try (except soft ball)
19. I have a really good sense of humor
20. I am two years younger than my boyfriend
21. I only write with black G-2 10 or G-2 07 pens
22. I also love elephants
23. I hate taking prescription medication, and most of the time I refuse it
24. I am a perfectionist
25. Desperate Housewives is my favorite TV show

Intelligent Design

I've been super busy the last couple days so I haven't had a chance to read everyone's blog posts. I'm so behind!

I actually attempted to create a structured schedule this week so that I can make the best use of my time... I'm already behind. I was supposed to work out when I got home but instead I've been aimlessly wandering around the internet, laying in bed staring at the ceiling, so on and so forth. So I think after I write this post I will stop procrastinating and get to work...maybe. :]

I was doing some research today, that was spurred by something I read in my biology book about the origin of life on planet earth. I decided to do some research on intelligent design vs. evolutionism. Just out of curiosity. I actually found out that intelligent design is actually a scientific theory. How ironic that I was never taught this, not even in Catholic school. Now for those of you who are going to scream at me about creationism, the theory of intelligent design and creationism are not the same. The theory of intelligent design is purely scientific, not religious. You can read more about it here. It's actually very interesting.

Garage Sales, Harrison Ford, School

I've spent most of the day with my best friend Amber. First I went over to her grandma's house to go to garage sales. Her condo complex was having a neighborhood garage sale. I got a bunch of good stuff. I got a new metal water bottle, the kind they sell at target for like fifteen dollars, Amber's grandma gave me that, she also gave me a really pretty purple bowl. I kind of have a thing for bowls...which is weird but whatever, it's really pretty. Amber gave me her Desperate Housewives board game. I got the study guide that goes with my sociology book for fifty sense, and I got a new eye pillow, brand new, I really needed a new one. And then I got Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul 2 at the thrift store. I'm pretty happy with my purchases. I also got a million good pictures of her grandma's dog with Amber's camera.

Then we went to Taco Bell and Jimmy John's for dinner. And we watched tv for a while at her house. Now we're watching Regarding Henry with Harrison Ford (such a good movie).

Nate got me the new Lady Gaga CD yesterday which made me very happy, talk about bass!

I have a lot of homework to do that I didn't get around to today so I'm probably going to try and get up earlier to work on it before the week starts again.

I started my new class on Friday, my sociology class. I think it'll be an okay class, it is three and a half hours long though, and yes, she's keeping us there the entire time. My teacher is really nice though and she doesn't seem like she's going to be boring so I guess it's okay.

Nine Days 'Til Season Six Desperate Housewives!!!!

I just finished watching the fifth season of Desperate Housewives on Lifetime today. This season, especially the season finale was so good I could cry. I'm hanging off tons of cliffs here! The good news is, the sixth season starts in nine days!!! (That's the upside to watching it on lifetime, I don't have to wait!) I'm so freaking pumped I feel like I'm going to burst with excitement. I can't believe there was talk of canceling the show, this was their best season yet! Talk about suspense! But I'll leave out the details for all who haven't seen it yet.

I love my girls. (Even when they're being totally evil :D)

I studied really hard and I got another A on another Biology quiz, which pleases me.

I start a new class tomorrow, so I'll have class four days a week and a slightly heavier work load. Biology is kicking my butt. I think I study twice as hard as everyone else, but I have to or I'll never pass.

Gosh I'm just so excited for season six I can't think about anything else. I'm going to go dance around my house. See ya later!

SLS, Pet Peevs, TV, and School

I have a bio quiz on Thursday, I really need to study or I know I won't get a good grade. I need to get a good grade in this class. My GPA is lower than I would like it to be.

No luck on the job hunt. They said on the news today that the recession is over...whoever said that obviously doesn't live in Michigan.

Me and Amber have been watching massive amounts of TV lately. Usually we watch movies but since she got U-Verse we've just been watching TV non-stop.

I have to mention one of my pet peeves because people have been doing this a lot lately. I hate it when either you comment on someone's page, whatever it is, and they comment back and ask you a bunch of questions and act like they care, and then you comment back and ask them questions about them and they never answer! I hate being ignored. It's really irritating.

So last week I got a canker sore in my mouth, it hurt really bad, it was practically radiating through my body. So in my examination of my canker sore, I noticed my gums looked a little red, not pink like they should be (I rarely brush my gums because they're so sensitive). So I started brushing my gums and now, within days, I have extremely painful canker sores all over my mouth! Doing research I found out that an ingredient common to toothpaste, sodium lauryl sulfate, is known to cause canker sores. Just what I need. So I went out and bought SLS Free toothpaste. Hopefully that will help, my mouth hurts so bad I'm afraid to eat. I was going to run today but I couldn't cuz my mouth hurt so bad, I almost want someone to bludgeon me in the head and knock me out!

Kanye Disses Taylor

Last night was the MTV Music Video Awards. I think everyone knows what happened last night at this point. It was all over the internet within minutes it seemed like.

Taylor Swift won Best Female Video for her "You Belong With Me" video. She got up on stage and started giving her acceptance speech only to have the mic grabbed from her by Kanye West, because I guess he felt the need to mention that Beyonce had the best video of all time (in his humble opinion).

Talk about rude and uncalled for. Just because you say "I'm really happy for you" doesn't mean you can then proceed to do whatever you want! Taylor looked completely humiliated, like she had no idea what to do.

You're an ass Kanye.

And for all the people who believe that what Kanye did was okay because he's right (which is only a matter of opinion), whether he's right or not, isn't the issue. What he did was rude, childish and uncalled for.

All I have to say is that if it were me, the headlines wouldn't say "Kanye Disses Taylor" they would say "Taylor Beats Down Kanye".

MTV Shows

Portraits and Difficult Homework

Ugh, I did not anticipate the difficulty of my biology homework. It required very good inference reading skills that I simply do not possess. Most other people I talked to said that they thought it was really hard too. But I got it done...after four hours, and I'm sure most of the answers are right.

I took new pictures of my sister today to add to my portfolio. I've recently taken an interest in portrait photography. I really love photographing people, they're my favorite subjects.


This is one of the best pictures I've taken in a long time, and sadly was really the only really good one I got, the rest just couldn't compete with this one.

Flawed Logic

Ohhh, people never cease to disturb me with their thoughts. The most disturbing of these are the thoughts that justify abortion, the termination of an innocent human life.

While looking for another website, I stumbled upon this one.

This so called "logical" argument is nothing short of ridiculous.

"However, abortion is not infanticide, yet an insufficient number of pundits explain why. The question isn't where life begins, but where biologically independent life begins."

If you go by this "logic" then you believe that a new born baby is not a human being, leave one on your counter top for a couple of days, see what happens. A toddler is not a human being. A mentally handicapped person is not human. According to this so called logic, a person who was once considered a human being is capable of losing their "human status". I think most biologists would agree that this is simply not possible.

"The fetus may be life, but it is certainly not independent life, and for that reason the right of termination justly belongs to the mother."

What does it say about a person if they believe that a person only has worth if they can take care of themselves? You admit that the fetus is a life, but you want to deny it its right to life on the grounds that it can not survive independently. Yes it is a life, it is as much of a life as a quadriplegic, an old woman with dementia, a child with a mental handicap, a person in a coma. Why do you not deny them their right to life as well?

Doesn't sound very logical to me. It's completely absurd.

You say that because the mother must care for the fetus, then she should have the right to end its life. Then why not let people euthanize their elderly parents, or parents euthanize their children before they reach the age where they can be "independent"? Why not? They're not independent, so please give me a reason not to.

This is not logic, this is selfishness. And it deeply saddens me to see that women are being so horribly exploited by abortion and the idea of being given a "choice". But I will save that for another day.

Photos, Petsmart, Working Out

I'm getting a little frustrated in my job search. There are actually a surprisingly high amount of jobs available, especially for Michigan, but my school schedule is really getting in the way. I don't know how I should schedule school for next semester, it almost seems like I need to know my work schedule before I make a school schedule. Ugh. I applied for two jobs today and I'm applying for two more tomorrow. Today (Friday) I applied for two part time Photographer Jobs, they're both entry level positions taking Children's Photos, one is temporary one is permanent. I'd like the permanent one. Tomorrow (Saturday) I'm going to apply for an entry level dog trainer position at PetSmart. I thought that would be fun, I love dogs, and that's something I can talk to people about. So yeah, wish me luck.

I didn't work out today, I just didn't have the energy, I'll work out tomorrow though, I promise.

Calorie King and Seven Eleven

I'm very excited because tomorrow is my free day from eating healthy. I can eat what ever I want. Seriously, I need these days, it's not like I crave crappy food all the time, just sometimes, and I need to satisfy those cravings at some point. Right?

I found a really great website called CalorieKing.com, you can find out the nutritional value of the food you eat at virtually any restaurant. I enjoyed looking up the food I always eat at BD's Mongolian Barbecue and Red Lobster.

I'm continuing my job search, I applied at Seven Eleven today, snagajob said that they were hiring so I thought I'd give it a shot. I'm getting desperate, I'm sick of being broke. The only thing I absolutely refuse to do is work in a fast food restaurant, I tried it once and it didn't end well. I have a friend that works at Seven Eleven and she says that she gets unlimited free slurpies when she's working. That would be very tempting for me, I'd just have to be disciplined and only take advantage of that on my free days.

Broken Laptops and Job Searching Fails

I shouldn't be awake right now, but I am. I have my bio lab tomorrow that I'm not really looking forward to. I hate doing stuff with partners, not that I hate my partners, just that it makes me nervous because I don't really know them.

My laptop is not functioning properly...again, so I'm posting from my dad's laptop. I really want a new laptop but I'm broke, and extremely picky. It literally has to be perfect for me to buy it. I'm also really nervous about buying a new one because you never know if you're gonna be one of the people who buys that model of that computer and gets a crappy one that has a bunch of system problems. I'm planning on spending around seven hundred for it, so it better work right.

My boyfriend was mean to me today(Wednesday). He called me (which was weird because he works on Wednesdays) and told me that he got fired from his job. I seriously almost cried. Not funny.

I'm not having very much luck on the job search front. I filled out my application for the hotel job and I honestly don't think I'm going to get an interview. They made you answer a bunch of "what if this happened" questions. It basically made the job sound like torture. Like what if a man drops his shirt off at the hotel's dry cleaner and doesn't come back to pick it up before they close. I'm like uhmmmmmm...how exactly is that my problem? It's not my fault he didn't do what he was supposed to do. Would you like me to escort him to the store and buy him a new shirt? What the hell?? Anyway, so I did that application, and then I filled out an application for K-mart. It took effing forever. I ended up with a migraine and an unsuccessful application filling out process. Long story short, the site has a major glitch and it wouldn't let me send the application. Needless to say I was immensely pissed. And then I sent my resume to this real estate office and I forgot to change the employment objective so now it looks like I'm applying at a hotel. So they probably won't even call me. I should just give up. I fail.

Back On the Wagon

The last two days I've done my best to jump back on the wagon, health wise. I did an easy run on Sunday just to get back in the groove, and then Monday I did a harder run, but it wasn't as hard as the first time I ran it a few weeks ago (walk for three minutes run for four, repeat four times). It's weird because I stopped working out for like two or three weeks and I don't feel like I've lost that much strength or stamina. I thought I was going to have to start all over.

I have a horrible canker sore in my mouth, the kind that is so bad that it aches and throbs in your mouth. I hate canker sores. I should probably wash my mouth out with salt water before I go to bed. I don't want it to hurt worse tomorrow morning than it did this morning, talk about ow.

Something that I've been craving for the last couple hours: a toasted banana peanut butter sandwich. It has to be toasted, otherwise it's nasty, considering I don't like bananas or sandwiches. I wish I would have thought of it before I ate the last banana in the house.

I go back to school on Wednesday, the break has been nice, even though I don't really feel like I needed it, I only have one class right now and I have plenty time to study for it.

Today (technically yesterday at this point) I had the horrible realization that I had actually applied for jobs...and I actually might get interviews...and I actually might get hired. That scares the crap out of me! I'm so nervous to start working again it's not even funny. I haven't had a job for almost a year, and I mean, I'm sick of being broke, but I don't want to have a job that I hate and have it consume my life and my thoughts, ugh. Like when I worked at McDonald's, I was in general, miserable. Even my days off were consumed by the utter dread of knowing I had to go back to work at some point. If you want to learn first hand how stupid people are, work at McDonald's. Seriously, people threatening to murder you over a hamburger, are you kidding me?!

So basically, I want to be independently wealthy instead. :D

Black and White Photo

I had to post this picture because I genuinely love her photography. (And I'm a sucker for black and white photography)

Photo by: Amber

Detroit Turkey Trot 2009, Job Hunt, Can't Sleep

My mind is far to busy to let me sleep, hence, blogging at 4:44 AM

I am very hungry but I can't go downstairs to get something to eat because my mom is sleeping on the couch...probably because my dad is snoring too loud.

I'm planning on starting running again tomorrow (or today, whatever). I have found new motivation, my cousin Jen and I are going to run the Detroit Turkey Trot 10k on Thanksgiving morning. I'm so excited!!

I really used to hate running. I ran cross country my freshman year in high school and I absolutely loathed it. I just hated it. But now that I have learned good running form and how to breathe properly, it has become much easier and much more fun for me. Maybe I'm just more mature now than I was at 14, I love the challenge. And a challenge it is. I am so out of shape! I can barely run for 4 minutes at five miles an hour. How sad is that?! Anyway, I'm hoping to really get a lot better at it in the near future, build up some good stamina. Seriously I'm so excited for this race that I could dance a jig right now. :D

I really must say, this website is not very user friendly at all. I realized today that when I follow someone, the little icon that shows up on their page does not show my picture or the URL to my blog. It used to, and now it doesn't and I have no idea why. I have pressed practically every button on this website and I can't figure out how to change it. If anyone has any ideas please let me know!

I applied for two jobs yesterday. I sent my resume to a real estate office, and to a hotel. The hotel is very close to my house, but the ad for the real estate office position was extremely vague, all I know about it is that it's a receptionist/clerical position and it pays $8.00-$10.00/hr. (I hope if I get hired I get paid $10 :D) Ugh, the thought of having another job where I have to answer phones terrifies me though. The last time I had to answer phones at a job, it was a never ending stress-fest, mainly because I had no idea what I was doing and I just know I was driving my co-workers insane. Not exactly a self esteem/confidence booster for me. Anyway, I'm trying to stay positive about it, maybe this time I'll be better at it, or they'll give me better training or something. I decided that I don't want to wake up one morning, 85 years old, and realize that I lived my life (or didn't live my life) in fear, I can't hide from the world forever, I'm just going to have to give myself a chance. And for goodness sake, I'm tired of bring broke!

Okay, time to give sleeping another shot, it is now 5:02 AM. I want to be rested for my first run in a while.

Google Logo

Google is known to change their logo on special days; Easter, Christmas, Halloween, Anniversaries etc. But nobody seems to know what is up with this UFO logo. Clicking the logo brings you to a google search of "unexplained phenomena".

The thing about this that makes me laugh, is that people are genuinely worried about this. Some say that today is the one year anniversary of aliens landing on earth. Others are bothered that they can't see the logo in their location. Why is the logo showing up in some places and not others? Who knows...and who cares? I'm sure there are a number of very logical explanations, besides google attempting to warn us of some future catastrophe.

Anyway, I'm not worried.

Long Weekend, Another Potential Job

Ahh long weekend, I had today off because my Friday class doesn't start until the end of the month, and then I have the weekend and Monday and Tuesday off. I just have to remember to do my homework or I'll have to rush on it and I don't like doing that.

I got a 10/10 on my bio quiz on Thursday, I studied for it for four hours, it was worth it though, I feel like I learned the material. It is my goal to get a 3.8-4.0 in that class and for my overall GPA. I really need to bring my cumulative GPA up.

Me and Nate went to Red Lobster for dinner tonight. Every time I eat there I end up extremely tired, I feel exhausted now. The crab was delicious though, and we brought home some of their appetizer bread/roll...things.

I found another potential new job, this one is at a hotel, it does require answering phones but I feel like answering phones at a hotel would be easier than at a real estate office, how hard could their questions be to answer? The one thing that really freaks me out though is giving people directions. I am terrible at giving directions. I don't know where anything is! People might as well be on Jupiter, if they take directions from me they'll never be seen again...ugh. But I guess I have to get over my people phobia sooner or later, I can't hide from the world forever.

Cello

I haven't blogged in a while 'cause I've been super busy with my bio class, and all the other things that occupy my time. So, sorry to anybody who is super interested in my life.

For a while now, it has been my dream to learn how to play the cello. It is my favorite instrument to listen to, it is so beautiful, and if I could play beautiful music on my own cello, it would be even better. I fell in love with the cello when I fell in love with my favorite piece of music; Bach's Cello Suite No. 1. The most beautiful piece of music ever written.


I want to learn how to play that music on the cello so bad I can taste it. Hopefully one day I will have a well paying job and I can afford a cello and cello lessons. Anyway, the other day I was browsing on projectplaylist for new cello music to listen to and I came across a band called Apocalyptica. They're famous for playing Metallica music on four cellos. It's actually pretty good music, hard rock played on the cello...original.

Pretty Uneventful

My day wasn't so great today, it wasn't really bad, it just wasn't so great.

I went to my Bio class, it actually didn't bore me to tears like I thought it would, it was actually pretty interesting, we learned about the properties of life, which has always interested me, and stuff about chemistry which I still remember from high school chem so it'll be easy for the first couple weeks at least.

Then I made an appointment with a lady at school to help me with my resume for 9 AM tomorrow.

I looked online again for that job posting so I could print it out, only to find that it has been taken down. I don't know why, I can only assume that the position has been filled, which is extremely disappointing. The only other job I really found on the site was a receptionist/clerical person part time for this real estate company. It was extremely vague though, it didn't give me the name of the company or where it was or anything, it just said that it was a real estate office in my city. Like wow that's really helpful thanks. I hate answering phones but it pays $8.00-$10.00 an hour so I guess it could maybe be worth it. My last experience with answering phones was not a good one to say the least. Talk about nervous break down.

Off the Wagon

Okay, I really went off the wagon this week, and so did my self esteem and confidence.

I got really frustrated with my weight loss efforts, so I kind of just gave up this last week. I was frustrated because I only lost three pounds in three weeks, I didn't really see that much of a difference in my body, and all of my jeans were either too big or too small.

What I didn't know was, that one pound a week is a perfectly healthy amount of weight to be losing. Why am I so impatient? I probably was also gaining muscle which is why I wasn't losing tons of weight. I'm so dumb!

Oh well, I guess I'll just jump back on the wagon this week...

In other news...

I know I already talked about this, but I really want that job I found. I'm so sick of being broke, you know it's bad when you practically drool at the thought of having a dollar bill. I haven't had any money to spend in so long it's ridiculous. I want to pay my own bills, I'm sick of needing my parents to pay for everything, I want to be independent. I really hardcore want this job.

Neopets and the Perfect Job

I have recently rediscovered my neopets obsession. When I was younger, probably about ten or eleven, I was absolutely obsessed with this website, it's very addicting. For those who have never heard of this site or don't really know what it is, it is a free website that allows you to own up to four "neopets" which are little cartoon pets that you take care of and play with. You feed them, you can buy them clothes, read them books, play games with them, battle with them, and a lot of other stuff. There are tons of things to do to earn "neopoints" which is what you use to buy things on the site (food, toys, books, clothes etc.).

The best part is that it has barely changed since I was a kid, I'm really glad they kept it simple and didn't try to over-improve it. It is wonderful the way it is.


My mom found a posting for a job opening at a hospital that sounds absolutely perfect for me. I'm sure it pays well, but honestly, I don't care if it only pays minimum wage, all I want, is to be spared being stressed to the point of a nervous break down. This would be a perfect job for me because I have all the experience I need, and I don't have to handle money or deal with the public! Perfect!

So on Monday morning I am going to make a call to have someone at my school help me improve my resume so I can apply for the job. I am really praying for this job because I am sick of being broke, and I need some more structure in my life. For me, too much free time means too much opportunity to procrastinate. If I have to go to school and work at the same time, it will be either keep up, or fail. And I am not going to fail, that is not an option.

Wish me luck!!

"I Love You Man" and Spiders

Has anyone seen the movie "I Love You Man"? (It's a great movie you should check it out)

The story is about a guy, Peter Klaven (Paul Rudd). Peter has no guy friends, and when he asks his girlfriend, Zooey (Rashida Jones), to marry him, he realizes that he has nobody to be his best man. I don't want to give too much away, so basically, this realization prompts him to begin his search for some guy friends to add to the wedding party, and ultimately a best man/best friend.

The reason I bring this up is because Peter Klaven, reminds me of me. He is so socially awkward it almost seems impossible. But when I watch him, I see myself. He's always nervous and awkward, not knowing what to say, and when he does say something it comes out as gibberish or making no sense at all (layta on tha menjay!). This is me! If you want to see how socially awkward I really am then you have to see this movie because it is a dead ringer for how I am in the social world (plus it's hilarious).

Fun fact: I got my fish's name from this movie.

Okay moving on, today was my first bio lab, and I thought I was going to hate it for a couple of reasons: 1. I have always hated doing science labs in the past and 2. I seem to always get a partner that doesn't particularly like me (or it could just be my imagination). But today actually wasn't that bad. The lab was actually kind of fun (for school anyway) and my partner was nice so I didn't feel really nervous. It was a good class.

I also have to add before I post this blog, while I was writing this a spider ran across my desk and scared the crap out of me. I saw it gasped, got up, walked to the other side of the room, and almost passed out. I hate spiders, and they know it, I swear they do.

"The Cove" and the Last Day of Summer Vacay

I realized in class today, that I get to kind of gradually ease back into the whole school routine, which is really cool, better than jumping right into all my classes all at once.

Biology 101 started today. I think that's going to be my hardest class, I'm a little worried that it's going to be a little over my head. I think it will be fine though, I'll just have to put more time into it than I would for easier classes.

My Sociology class doesn't start until September 16th and then my English Comp and computer class start October 21st. I hope I'm glad I scheduled this way.

Yesterday I hung out with my cousin Rikki and enjoyed my last day of summer vacation.

We took a walk in the park and got some pretty pictures...

It was a good day, we definitely got our exercise in, we walked around three miles just in the park. Note to self: Don't wear flip flops on long walks, it won't end well.

Today in Bio we watched a trailer for a movie/documentary/thriller called "The Cove". It's about what I guess is a mass slaughter of dolphins in Japan. Most of the world doesn't know about it, even the people in Japan. Most people who know me know that I'm far from being an animal rights activist, the problem I have with this, is that they are taking this dolphin meat, and selling it like it's fish and sushi (a.k.a. lying). Dolphins are not fish, they're mammals and they live longer than fish and they gather up quite a few toxins in their bodies over time. I guess the documentary goes on to show how this is causing health problems, including birth defects, in Japan. (I don't really know, my teacher saw the whole movie already at a film festival.)

"The Cove" Website

The trailer doesn't make it look all that exciting, and according to my professor, doesn't do the movie justice.

Funny Videos

My friend Amber showed me a couple of videos on youtube today (well, technically yesterday) that really made me laugh.

David After Dentist



This video cracked me up! Especially the part where he just stands up, screams, and then kind of falls asleep for a minute. It's pretty hilarious.

Then there's the parody...

David After Drugs (Language Warning)




This is definitely way funnier if you have seen the original first. I couldn't stop laughing at these videos.


Then there's this video, it's not so much that the video is hilarious, just the fact that the video has close to three million views, and then thinking about how embarassed this kid is going to be when he grows up!!

Baby In Tummy




Okay, that's all for right now, school starts tomorrow. Class at 2PM...at least I get to sleep in :D

Shy and Unemployed

Today is Monday, one of my two last days before school starts again on Wednesday.

I'm actually kind of nervous for school to start, like I'm nervous but excited at the same time. I feel like this was the longest summer ever, because I got out much earlier than I ever did in high school or grade school. I also feel like I haven't been in touch with the human race in months.

I'm so painfully shy that it kind of makes going back to school to new classes a painful experience.

But I have a few goals for this year. This year I want to get a 4.0 both semesters. First semester I got a 3.8 but the second semester I got like a 1.7...I hate the winter semester, ugh.

I also want to make at least one new friend this year. I didn't really put any effort into meeting new people last year, and I'm thinking that I should, just for the sake of getting over my shyness. I should probably stop assuming that people hate me from the moment they see me haha.

And finally, I have to get a job. I have been out of work pretty much since I got laid off from the best job ever in August of '08. I did work for a cleaning company for a few months but they literally were not paying me, so I quit. And once again, my shyness and lack of self confidence holds me back. What else is new? But yeah, this year I'm definitely going to make it happen, I am going to get a new job.

In other news, I started week three of my eight week running program. Remember how I was afraid I wouldn't be able to do it? Well, I almost couldn't. It was so hard, oh my gosh, but I finished it. Of course I was so weak and exhausted afterwords that I barely did any strength training that I would normally do, but whatever.

I have another blog post in the works but it requires some research, so that will be coming as soon as I can do the reading that I need to in order to write it.

Okay, there's the update on my life for anyone whose actually interested. Peace <3

Back To School and Running

School is getting ready to start again, which means there's a lot for me to do to make sure I'm ready.

I finally got my schedule all put together, it took me a while ha ha. I'm taking biology, english, sociology, and a computer class (which will be easy). The computer class is an internet class, I'm interested in seeing how that will go, if I like it I might take more of them. I much prefer not having to leave my house for school, then I don't have to worry about waking up late or the weather or what to pack for my lunch etc. etc.

I got a new comfy chair for my desk, I got it from a sale my dad's work was having for five bucks, it's in really good condition and much more comfortable than the one I had before. Plus, it spins!

I'm currently working on cleaning up my room and my desk space, I can't stand working in a mess! I got all my school clothes hung up in my closet. I barely had enough hangers and my clothing supply is starting to get too big for my closet...what a problem to have.

After my room is all clean I'm going to ask my dad to put up my new shelves and finally get my ceiling fan put in. I've been without a light in my room for about a year. I've been using a floor lamp but it's on its last leg...what do you expect for ten bucks?

I also need to clean out my car, it's not that I have a ton of stuff in there, it just needs to be vacuumed and such.

I've been doing a lot of running lately. I started this eight week running program for beginning runners, and it has been a pleasant experience so far. I ran cross country my freshman year in high school and I absolutely hated it. Freshman year my doctor told me that I have sports induced asthma and just gave me an inhaler for it, which didn't really help all that much. The combination of not knowing how to breathe while running and my asthma, made it more difficult than it should have been.

After doing a lot of research I realized that I had never been breathing the right way while running. Breathing correctly while running does wonders, you get a lot more air into your lungs by breathing through your nose and mouth simultaneously. Also, staying hydrated before during and after running makes it a lot less painful, the only time my asthma bothers me now is when I'm dehydrated. Knowing all this is making me a better, happier runner. Sunday or Monday I'll be starting week three of my eight week running program. Wish me luck! I'm kind of nervous that I won't be able to do it, because it looks significantly harder than week two.

My Running Program

That's pretty much it. Maybe I'll post pictures of my room when it's all done, it's so pretty!