Fall and Pictures

Today was an a perfectly beautiful Michigan fall day. I must admit that I have always hated fall because it is the end of summer and it leads into winter (which I really hate), but I decided to make an effort to enjoy all the seasons from now on. Even if they are painfully long, cold and gray. Today was colder than it has been in a while, but it wasn't so cold that you couldn't go outside without a jacket. The beginning of the day was really gray and dark, but towards the end the sun came out and the clouds dispersed a little. It was beautiful, the trees turning from green to red, the beautiful colors of the sunset on the clouds, and it was a nice temperature. I had some apple cider too. Apple cider tastes so much better in the fall, when it's cool outside, I don't know why but it just does.

My friend Amber posted a couple of pictures on her deviant art I wanted to share because I just can't get over how amazing they are. I love the composure of this picture (top right). I am a sucker for black and white photos but I have to say this looks amazing in color, especially since blue really is the only color, it adds drama. I also admire the creativity of this shot, this isn't something I would think of myself. This is the kind of picture I would put on my bedroom wall. I'm actually
going to ask her to help me pick some out, or if she cares if I put them on my wall, because there are so many that I adore. Then there is this second picture (bottom right) that I also really like. The other one is my favorite but I also really like this one. Keep up the good work Ambs, it is truly inspiring.

Sociology

I didn't think I would, but I'm really enjoying my sociology class. It's really interesting to study other people. I've always love watching people, but I never really thought about it. I really do find other people fascinating. Unless they're pissing me off. For instance; I realized today that, it isn't that people don't know how to drive, it's just that they don't care. They don't care if they're taking your life into their hands, they're just completely inconsiderate. Anyway, off topic, I really like looking at what people do in other cultures and in subcultures. I'm writing a paper based on an interview with someone involved in a subculture. I decided to interview my boyfriend's younger brother who is a scout. He's actually just about to get his eagle rank, which is pretty sweet. I'm really excited about the paper, it's going to be so good. He gave me such good answers, I actually have something to work with, and he's also giving me a book he has about the scouts so I can have more information. I may even post it as a blog when I'm done.

Desperate Housewives Huge Disappointment

Spoiler Alert: If you have not been caught up to the newest season of Desperate Housewives then don't continue reading this post (unless you want to spoil it for yourself of course).


Last season (season 5) of Desperate Housewives, my favorite show ever, Lynette discovered that at the age of 47, she is pregnant with twins, and is not happy about it. She makes it clear that she is not happy about it in the first episode of season six when she confesses to Tom that she does not love her unborn babies.

This brought to me the realization that this season Lynette is probably going to consider having an abortion. Anyone who knows me even a little knows that my world imploded when I realized this. What a way to ruin a show. It started last season, they started bringing more politics into their episodes, which I found annoying. People watch shows like Desperate Housewives to escape reality, they don't want to hear about how bad the economy is when they're trying to relax. And to bring such a touchy issue into the series, in my opinion, is a big mistake. If Lynette makes a bad decision and decides to get an abortion, I don't know if I will be watching this show anymore. I don't want to watch shows that condone the murder of innocent children.

Unproductive But Fun Day

Today was a moderately unproductive good day.

I woke up at 11 o'clock, and it was really gloomy and overcast outside. I had this amazing plan to get a bunch of school work done....didn't happen. I took notes on like a quarter of chapter six for biology. And I have a huge test on Wednesday and a quiz on Monday. I'm stressing about it because it's been getting harder and harder.

Then I went outside and me and my dad built a fire, me and him and my mom sat around the fire for a couple hours until Amber called and my dad had the idea to go to Sonic. So I went up and picked up amber and we all went out to Sonic, including Paige. Me and Amber and Paige decided to sit at a table outside because it was too crowded in the back seat. We had such a good time, and we ended up laughing so hard that the people sitting in the surrounding area were making fun of us. If I had noticed that I probably would have laughed more, I seriously couldn't stop.

Now me and Amber are sitting in her living room watching Super Nanny.

Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive, probably less fun though.

Long Day

Today was a long day. I got a crappy night sleep, which is nothing new as of late, and I got up at 7 A.M. for my 9 A.M. class. (I really need to learn how to not spend 2 hours getting ready for class.) My sociology class is okay, it's really interesting but it's really long (3.5 hours) and there's this kid who sits in front of me who thinks he knows everything and is really obnoxious. But, on the plus side, I only have to do it 10 more times.

We have a reflection paper due next Friday, we have to interview someone that is part of a subculture. I'm debating between a couple of people. I want to either interview my boyfriend's little brother who is a scout, or his older brother who does graffiti art (not on buildings, on canvases and stuff, and it's beautiful), or I could interview my boyfriend who is in the culinary arts. I don't know what I want to do.

I'm stressing about my bio test on Wednesday, there's so much to know and I'm a little behind in my studying. I desperately want to get a good grade in this class.

25 Things About Me

I am once again behind in my blogging. I only have two classes but they have me so busy that I hardly have time to read or write.

My cousin Jen posted a blog called 25 things about me so I decided to be a lame-oh and do the same thing. :D

1. I love Lady Gaga's music, but I don't love Lady Gaga
2. I love birds
3. I secretly believe that my shyness with cause me to get nowhere in life
4. I am terrified of most bugs but I'm not in the least bit afraid of: large dogs, rodents, or roller coasters
5. I love to write but nothing ever comes out the way that I want it to
6. I am a deep thinker
7. I do not trust the doctor
8. My favorite color is lime green
9. I love milk
10. I have asthma
11. I am very conservative
12. I have bad knees
13. I am actually really good at drawing, but I don't have the patience for it
14. The cello is my favorite instrument
15. Bach's Cello Suite No. 1 is my favorite piece of music of all time
16. I have visited Switzerland, Germany, Lichtenstein, and Austria
17. I took four and a half years of German
18. I am naturally good at most things I try (except soft ball)
19. I have a really good sense of humor
20. I am two years younger than my boyfriend
21. I only write with black G-2 10 or G-2 07 pens
22. I also love elephants
23. I hate taking prescription medication, and most of the time I refuse it
24. I am a perfectionist
25. Desperate Housewives is my favorite TV show

Intelligent Design

I've been super busy the last couple days so I haven't had a chance to read everyone's blog posts. I'm so behind!

I actually attempted to create a structured schedule this week so that I can make the best use of my time... I'm already behind. I was supposed to work out when I got home but instead I've been aimlessly wandering around the internet, laying in bed staring at the ceiling, so on and so forth. So I think after I write this post I will stop procrastinating and get to work...maybe. :]

I was doing some research today, that was spurred by something I read in my biology book about the origin of life on planet earth. I decided to do some research on intelligent design vs. evolutionism. Just out of curiosity. I actually found out that intelligent design is actually a scientific theory. How ironic that I was never taught this, not even in Catholic school. Now for those of you who are going to scream at me about creationism, the theory of intelligent design and creationism are not the same. The theory of intelligent design is purely scientific, not religious. You can read more about it here. It's actually very interesting.

Garage Sales, Harrison Ford, School

I've spent most of the day with my best friend Amber. First I went over to her grandma's house to go to garage sales. Her condo complex was having a neighborhood garage sale. I got a bunch of good stuff. I got a new metal water bottle, the kind they sell at target for like fifteen dollars, Amber's grandma gave me that, she also gave me a really pretty purple bowl. I kind of have a thing for bowls...which is weird but whatever, it's really pretty. Amber gave me her Desperate Housewives board game. I got the study guide that goes with my sociology book for fifty sense, and I got a new eye pillow, brand new, I really needed a new one. And then I got Chicken Soup for the Christian Soul 2 at the thrift store. I'm pretty happy with my purchases. I also got a million good pictures of her grandma's dog with Amber's camera.

Then we went to Taco Bell and Jimmy John's for dinner. And we watched tv for a while at her house. Now we're watching Regarding Henry with Harrison Ford (such a good movie).

Nate got me the new Lady Gaga CD yesterday which made me very happy, talk about bass!

I have a lot of homework to do that I didn't get around to today so I'm probably going to try and get up earlier to work on it before the week starts again.

I started my new class on Friday, my sociology class. I think it'll be an okay class, it is three and a half hours long though, and yes, she's keeping us there the entire time. My teacher is really nice though and she doesn't seem like she's going to be boring so I guess it's okay.

Nine Days 'Til Season Six Desperate Housewives!!!!

I just finished watching the fifth season of Desperate Housewives on Lifetime today. This season, especially the season finale was so good I could cry. I'm hanging off tons of cliffs here! The good news is, the sixth season starts in nine days!!! (That's the upside to watching it on lifetime, I don't have to wait!) I'm so freaking pumped I feel like I'm going to burst with excitement. I can't believe there was talk of canceling the show, this was their best season yet! Talk about suspense! But I'll leave out the details for all who haven't seen it yet.

I love my girls. (Even when they're being totally evil :D)

I studied really hard and I got another A on another Biology quiz, which pleases me.

I start a new class tomorrow, so I'll have class four days a week and a slightly heavier work load. Biology is kicking my butt. I think I study twice as hard as everyone else, but I have to or I'll never pass.

Gosh I'm just so excited for season six I can't think about anything else. I'm going to go dance around my house. See ya later!

SLS, Pet Peevs, TV, and School

I have a bio quiz on Thursday, I really need to study or I know I won't get a good grade. I need to get a good grade in this class. My GPA is lower than I would like it to be.

No luck on the job hunt. They said on the news today that the recession is over...whoever said that obviously doesn't live in Michigan.

Me and Amber have been watching massive amounts of TV lately. Usually we watch movies but since she got U-Verse we've just been watching TV non-stop.

I have to mention one of my pet peeves because people have been doing this a lot lately. I hate it when either you comment on someone's page, whatever it is, and they comment back and ask you a bunch of questions and act like they care, and then you comment back and ask them questions about them and they never answer! I hate being ignored. It's really irritating.

So last week I got a canker sore in my mouth, it hurt really bad, it was practically radiating through my body. So in my examination of my canker sore, I noticed my gums looked a little red, not pink like they should be (I rarely brush my gums because they're so sensitive). So I started brushing my gums and now, within days, I have extremely painful canker sores all over my mouth! Doing research I found out that an ingredient common to toothpaste, sodium lauryl sulfate, is known to cause canker sores. Just what I need. So I went out and bought SLS Free toothpaste. Hopefully that will help, my mouth hurts so bad I'm afraid to eat. I was going to run today but I couldn't cuz my mouth hurt so bad, I almost want someone to bludgeon me in the head and knock me out!

Kanye Disses Taylor

Last night was the MTV Music Video Awards. I think everyone knows what happened last night at this point. It was all over the internet within minutes it seemed like.

Taylor Swift won Best Female Video for her "You Belong With Me" video. She got up on stage and started giving her acceptance speech only to have the mic grabbed from her by Kanye West, because I guess he felt the need to mention that Beyonce had the best video of all time (in his humble opinion).

Talk about rude and uncalled for. Just because you say "I'm really happy for you" doesn't mean you can then proceed to do whatever you want! Taylor looked completely humiliated, like she had no idea what to do.

You're an ass Kanye.

And for all the people who believe that what Kanye did was okay because he's right (which is only a matter of opinion), whether he's right or not, isn't the issue. What he did was rude, childish and uncalled for.

All I have to say is that if it were me, the headlines wouldn't say "Kanye Disses Taylor" they would say "Taylor Beats Down Kanye".

MTV Shows

Portraits and Difficult Homework

Ugh, I did not anticipate the difficulty of my biology homework. It required very good inference reading skills that I simply do not possess. Most other people I talked to said that they thought it was really hard too. But I got it done...after four hours, and I'm sure most of the answers are right.

I took new pictures of my sister today to add to my portfolio. I've recently taken an interest in portrait photography. I really love photographing people, they're my favorite subjects.


This is one of the best pictures I've taken in a long time, and sadly was really the only really good one I got, the rest just couldn't compete with this one.

Flawed Logic

Ohhh, people never cease to disturb me with their thoughts. The most disturbing of these are the thoughts that justify abortion, the termination of an innocent human life.

While looking for another website, I stumbled upon this one.

This so called "logical" argument is nothing short of ridiculous.

"However, abortion is not infanticide, yet an insufficient number of pundits explain why. The question isn't where life begins, but where biologically independent life begins."

If you go by this "logic" then you believe that a new born baby is not a human being, leave one on your counter top for a couple of days, see what happens. A toddler is not a human being. A mentally handicapped person is not human. According to this so called logic, a person who was once considered a human being is capable of losing their "human status". I think most biologists would agree that this is simply not possible.

"The fetus may be life, but it is certainly not independent life, and for that reason the right of termination justly belongs to the mother."

What does it say about a person if they believe that a person only has worth if they can take care of themselves? You admit that the fetus is a life, but you want to deny it its right to life on the grounds that it can not survive independently. Yes it is a life, it is as much of a life as a quadriplegic, an old woman with dementia, a child with a mental handicap, a person in a coma. Why do you not deny them their right to life as well?

Doesn't sound very logical to me. It's completely absurd.

You say that because the mother must care for the fetus, then she should have the right to end its life. Then why not let people euthanize their elderly parents, or parents euthanize their children before they reach the age where they can be "independent"? Why not? They're not independent, so please give me a reason not to.

This is not logic, this is selfishness. And it deeply saddens me to see that women are being so horribly exploited by abortion and the idea of being given a "choice". But I will save that for another day.

Photos, Petsmart, Working Out

I'm getting a little frustrated in my job search. There are actually a surprisingly high amount of jobs available, especially for Michigan, but my school schedule is really getting in the way. I don't know how I should schedule school for next semester, it almost seems like I need to know my work schedule before I make a school schedule. Ugh. I applied for two jobs today and I'm applying for two more tomorrow. Today (Friday) I applied for two part time Photographer Jobs, they're both entry level positions taking Children's Photos, one is temporary one is permanent. I'd like the permanent one. Tomorrow (Saturday) I'm going to apply for an entry level dog trainer position at PetSmart. I thought that would be fun, I love dogs, and that's something I can talk to people about. So yeah, wish me luck.

I didn't work out today, I just didn't have the energy, I'll work out tomorrow though, I promise.

Calorie King and Seven Eleven

I'm very excited because tomorrow is my free day from eating healthy. I can eat what ever I want. Seriously, I need these days, it's not like I crave crappy food all the time, just sometimes, and I need to satisfy those cravings at some point. Right?

I found a really great website called CalorieKing.com, you can find out the nutritional value of the food you eat at virtually any restaurant. I enjoyed looking up the food I always eat at BD's Mongolian Barbecue and Red Lobster.

I'm continuing my job search, I applied at Seven Eleven today, snagajob said that they were hiring so I thought I'd give it a shot. I'm getting desperate, I'm sick of being broke. The only thing I absolutely refuse to do is work in a fast food restaurant, I tried it once and it didn't end well. I have a friend that works at Seven Eleven and she says that she gets unlimited free slurpies when she's working. That would be very tempting for me, I'd just have to be disciplined and only take advantage of that on my free days.

Broken Laptops and Job Searching Fails

I shouldn't be awake right now, but I am. I have my bio lab tomorrow that I'm not really looking forward to. I hate doing stuff with partners, not that I hate my partners, just that it makes me nervous because I don't really know them.

My laptop is not functioning properly...again, so I'm posting from my dad's laptop. I really want a new laptop but I'm broke, and extremely picky. It literally has to be perfect for me to buy it. I'm also really nervous about buying a new one because you never know if you're gonna be one of the people who buys that model of that computer and gets a crappy one that has a bunch of system problems. I'm planning on spending around seven hundred for it, so it better work right.

My boyfriend was mean to me today(Wednesday). He called me (which was weird because he works on Wednesdays) and told me that he got fired from his job. I seriously almost cried. Not funny.

I'm not having very much luck on the job search front. I filled out my application for the hotel job and I honestly don't think I'm going to get an interview. They made you answer a bunch of "what if this happened" questions. It basically made the job sound like torture. Like what if a man drops his shirt off at the hotel's dry cleaner and doesn't come back to pick it up before they close. I'm like uhmmmmmm...how exactly is that my problem? It's not my fault he didn't do what he was supposed to do. Would you like me to escort him to the store and buy him a new shirt? What the hell?? Anyway, so I did that application, and then I filled out an application for K-mart. It took effing forever. I ended up with a migraine and an unsuccessful application filling out process. Long story short, the site has a major glitch and it wouldn't let me send the application. Needless to say I was immensely pissed. And then I sent my resume to this real estate office and I forgot to change the employment objective so now it looks like I'm applying at a hotel. So they probably won't even call me. I should just give up. I fail.

Back On the Wagon

The last two days I've done my best to jump back on the wagon, health wise. I did an easy run on Sunday just to get back in the groove, and then Monday I did a harder run, but it wasn't as hard as the first time I ran it a few weeks ago (walk for three minutes run for four, repeat four times). It's weird because I stopped working out for like two or three weeks and I don't feel like I've lost that much strength or stamina. I thought I was going to have to start all over.

I have a horrible canker sore in my mouth, the kind that is so bad that it aches and throbs in your mouth. I hate canker sores. I should probably wash my mouth out with salt water before I go to bed. I don't want it to hurt worse tomorrow morning than it did this morning, talk about ow.

Something that I've been craving for the last couple hours: a toasted banana peanut butter sandwich. It has to be toasted, otherwise it's nasty, considering I don't like bananas or sandwiches. I wish I would have thought of it before I ate the last banana in the house.

I go back to school on Wednesday, the break has been nice, even though I don't really feel like I needed it, I only have one class right now and I have plenty time to study for it.

Today (technically yesterday at this point) I had the horrible realization that I had actually applied for jobs...and I actually might get interviews...and I actually might get hired. That scares the crap out of me! I'm so nervous to start working again it's not even funny. I haven't had a job for almost a year, and I mean, I'm sick of being broke, but I don't want to have a job that I hate and have it consume my life and my thoughts, ugh. Like when I worked at McDonald's, I was in general, miserable. Even my days off were consumed by the utter dread of knowing I had to go back to work at some point. If you want to learn first hand how stupid people are, work at McDonald's. Seriously, people threatening to murder you over a hamburger, are you kidding me?!

So basically, I want to be independently wealthy instead. :D

Black and White Photo

I had to post this picture because I genuinely love her photography. (And I'm a sucker for black and white photography)

Photo by: Amber

Detroit Turkey Trot 2009, Job Hunt, Can't Sleep

My mind is far to busy to let me sleep, hence, blogging at 4:44 AM

I am very hungry but I can't go downstairs to get something to eat because my mom is sleeping on the couch...probably because my dad is snoring too loud.

I'm planning on starting running again tomorrow (or today, whatever). I have found new motivation, my cousin Jen and I are going to run the Detroit Turkey Trot 10k on Thanksgiving morning. I'm so excited!!

I really used to hate running. I ran cross country my freshman year in high school and I absolutely loathed it. I just hated it. But now that I have learned good running form and how to breathe properly, it has become much easier and much more fun for me. Maybe I'm just more mature now than I was at 14, I love the challenge. And a challenge it is. I am so out of shape! I can barely run for 4 minutes at five miles an hour. How sad is that?! Anyway, I'm hoping to really get a lot better at it in the near future, build up some good stamina. Seriously I'm so excited for this race that I could dance a jig right now. :D

I really must say, this website is not very user friendly at all. I realized today that when I follow someone, the little icon that shows up on their page does not show my picture or the URL to my blog. It used to, and now it doesn't and I have no idea why. I have pressed practically every button on this website and I can't figure out how to change it. If anyone has any ideas please let me know!

I applied for two jobs yesterday. I sent my resume to a real estate office, and to a hotel. The hotel is very close to my house, but the ad for the real estate office position was extremely vague, all I know about it is that it's a receptionist/clerical position and it pays $8.00-$10.00/hr. (I hope if I get hired I get paid $10 :D) Ugh, the thought of having another job where I have to answer phones terrifies me though. The last time I had to answer phones at a job, it was a never ending stress-fest, mainly because I had no idea what I was doing and I just know I was driving my co-workers insane. Not exactly a self esteem/confidence booster for me. Anyway, I'm trying to stay positive about it, maybe this time I'll be better at it, or they'll give me better training or something. I decided that I don't want to wake up one morning, 85 years old, and realize that I lived my life (or didn't live my life) in fear, I can't hide from the world forever, I'm just going to have to give myself a chance. And for goodness sake, I'm tired of bring broke!

Okay, time to give sleeping another shot, it is now 5:02 AM. I want to be rested for my first run in a while.

Google Logo

Google is known to change their logo on special days; Easter, Christmas, Halloween, Anniversaries etc. But nobody seems to know what is up with this UFO logo. Clicking the logo brings you to a google search of "unexplained phenomena".

The thing about this that makes me laugh, is that people are genuinely worried about this. Some say that today is the one year anniversary of aliens landing on earth. Others are bothered that they can't see the logo in their location. Why is the logo showing up in some places and not others? Who knows...and who cares? I'm sure there are a number of very logical explanations, besides google attempting to warn us of some future catastrophe.

Anyway, I'm not worried.

Long Weekend, Another Potential Job

Ahh long weekend, I had today off because my Friday class doesn't start until the end of the month, and then I have the weekend and Monday and Tuesday off. I just have to remember to do my homework or I'll have to rush on it and I don't like doing that.

I got a 10/10 on my bio quiz on Thursday, I studied for it for four hours, it was worth it though, I feel like I learned the material. It is my goal to get a 3.8-4.0 in that class and for my overall GPA. I really need to bring my cumulative GPA up.

Me and Nate went to Red Lobster for dinner tonight. Every time I eat there I end up extremely tired, I feel exhausted now. The crab was delicious though, and we brought home some of their appetizer bread/roll...things.

I found another potential new job, this one is at a hotel, it does require answering phones but I feel like answering phones at a hotel would be easier than at a real estate office, how hard could their questions be to answer? The one thing that really freaks me out though is giving people directions. I am terrible at giving directions. I don't know where anything is! People might as well be on Jupiter, if they take directions from me they'll never be seen again...ugh. But I guess I have to get over my people phobia sooner or later, I can't hide from the world forever.

Cello

I haven't blogged in a while 'cause I've been super busy with my bio class, and all the other things that occupy my time. So, sorry to anybody who is super interested in my life.

For a while now, it has been my dream to learn how to play the cello. It is my favorite instrument to listen to, it is so beautiful, and if I could play beautiful music on my own cello, it would be even better. I fell in love with the cello when I fell in love with my favorite piece of music; Bach's Cello Suite No. 1. The most beautiful piece of music ever written.


I want to learn how to play that music on the cello so bad I can taste it. Hopefully one day I will have a well paying job and I can afford a cello and cello lessons. Anyway, the other day I was browsing on projectplaylist for new cello music to listen to and I came across a band called Apocalyptica. They're famous for playing Metallica music on four cellos. It's actually pretty good music, hard rock played on the cello...original.